Topic: WHAT ARE YOU READING RIGHT NOW?

I currently have two on the go....

Wolf Hall by Hilary Mantel  - Historical Novel about Thomas Cromwell within the Court of Henry VIII. A Booker Prize winner and a great read (if you like that sort of thing). I'd already read 'Bring Up the Bodies' which is her sequel to Wolf Hall. Wrong order I know, but 'Bring Up the Bodies' was a birthday gift.


Matterhorn by Karl Marlantes.

A novel set in the Vietnam War and I'm finding it excellent so far.
Interesting to this community because it was first released as a minor (self) publication but was picked up by a major publisher and has gone bestseller. I believe it will become a mainstay classic.

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I just finished The Waste Land by T. S. Eliot and a biography on Zora Neale Hurston. Before that I read Long Day's Journey Into Night by Eugene O'Neill. So incredible. I love the crashing in on itself feel of that one. Probably the best play I've ever read. I also read Ariel by Sylvia Plath very recently. Brutal imagery. I think she's my favorite poet.

I'm about to start A Room of One's Own by Virginia Woolf. It's lying open behind me. smile

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The Mission Song by John le Carré,

My last le Carré! When this is done I've read everything of his. I've been saving this since my birthday. A signed hardcover edition that an old friend found for me. Saving it like a precious wine but Wolf Hall done, I could wait no longer. Loving it! Four chapters in and this is stuff I love to read. Acquired taste and it repels some; but I'm on-board and in tune with this. John le Carré is my favourite author. He holds me enthralled.

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Somehow I've overwritten your post here corra. I think it is because I'm almost as bad a moderator as you were wink  Accidentally wiping people out. Power goes straight to the keypress.

You said something like; 'le Carré  - you'll need to read them all again"

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In my mind I refer to le Carré all of the time. Funny how some writing sticks and influences.

I re-visited and polished up a story of mine for the current short story competition here on tNBW. I actually wrote it a couple of years ago and it was my big exercise in writing in John le Carré 'style.'

His works are either loved or hated.

This is opening to my piece, The Executioner.


These crazy mock-executions have to stop. It is time; I think we all know that.

Oh, the first one was acceptable enough. It was justified and provided us with not only the required degree of retribution, but some entertainment along the way.

I need to explain from the beginning and this is not the world you know. The rules of that place do not apply. We are the Guards and the Regiment exists apart from the rest of the army. We live by a code of ethics defined before Bonaparte, for we are the British Grenadiers and a creed forged from hundred battles and a thousand skirmishes. Our rank and file has formed the frontline in every conflict the British Empire has fought down the ages.

The Grenadier Guards; proverbial cannon-fodder, and because our ultimate role is to die for any throwaway cause our country determines. In the meantime our creed is that we live by the measure of our own law. You cannot apply civilian law to an uncivil existence.

This particular war, it finished in 1945, so they say; and yet here we are, it is late1989 and we are still not stood down. Every night and day we stand on a wall, our weapons loaded and cocked. We are staunch upon this landlocked island that is West-Berlin. One hundred miles behind enemy lines, we are six-hundred British Redcoats in cammo battle jackets and standing toe-to-toe with the two-hundred-thousand Red Russian assault troops who surround us, and we watch and wait. First one to blink, that's the game and our fingers are triggered

We are the camp followers of history and it is on the march again, the spectre of something big is forming. On the other side of the Berlin wall Soviet armour is massing, the bark and howl of tank engines cracks the frost and splits the night; steel-plate attack dogs, ever-ready and straining at the leash, the ground trembles and upon the freezing November wind we can taste their fumes.

In the face of hell's army we stand with a rifle and twenty rounds of ammunition each. It's enough because somewhere far behind us is NATO and Uncle Sam's apocalypse machine. We're an un-defendable outpost; the human early warning system and merely the trip-wire; the flashpoint; the percussion cap. Within the battle plan for when the Cold-War goes hot, we are considered already dead.


It attracted the following review.


I will confess, I had a hard time with this one. About a third of the way in, my eyes glazed over because of the repetition of theme. We are this, this, this, and that. And then we are that, that, that, and this. I do apologize, as it's probably a me thing, but once the glaze happened, so too was the will to keep reading.


I’m not complaining about the review, it is a reader’s honest opinion and to be honest I’m quite proud of it because it is almost exactly the kind of critique that le Carré gets!

Here is the opening to ‘The Mission Song’


My name is Bruno Salvador. My friends call me Salvo, so do my enemies. Contrary to what anybody may tell you, I am a citizen in good standing of the United Kingdom and Northern Ireland, and by profession a top interpreter of Swahili and the lesser-known but widely spoken languages of the Eastern Congo, formerly under Belgian rule, hence my mastery of French, a further arrow in my professional quiver. I am a familiar face around the London law courts both civil and criminal, and in regular demand at conferences on Third World matters, see my glowing references from many of our nation's finest corporate names. Due to my special skills I have also been called upon to do my patriotic duty on a confidential basis by a government department whose existence is routinely denied. I have never been in trouble, I pay my taxes regularly, have a healthy credit rating and am the owner of a well-conducted bank account. Those are cast-iron facts that no amount of bureaucratic manipulation can alter, however hard they try.

In six years of honest labour in the world of commerce I have applied my services – be it by way of cautiously phrased conference calls or discreet meetings in neutral cities on the European continent  –  to the creative adjustment of oil, gold, diamond, mineral and other commodity prices, not to mention the diversion of many millions of dollars from the prying eyes of the world's shareholders into slush funds as far removed as Panama, Budapest and Singapore. Ask me whether, in facilitating these trans-actions, I felt obliged to consult my conscience and you will receive the emphatic answer, 'No.' The code of your top interpreter is sacrosanct. He is not hired to indulge his scruples. He is pledged to his employer in the same manner as a soldier is pledged to the flag. In deference to the world's unfortunates, however, it is also my practice to make myself available on a pro bone basis to London hospitals, prisons and the immigration authorities despite the fact that the remuneration in such cases is peanuts.

I am on the voters' list at number 17, Norfolk Mansions, Prince of Wales Drive, Battersea, South London, a desirable freehold property of which I am the minority co-owner together with my legal wife Penelope - never call her Penny - an upper-echelon Oxbridge journalist four years my senior and, at the age of thirty-two, a rising star in the firmament of a mass-market British tabloid capable of swaying millions. Penelope's father is the senior partner of a blue-chip City law firm and her mother a major force in her local Conservative Party. We married five years ago on the strength of a mutual physical attraction, plus the understanding that she would get pregnant as soon as her career permitted, owing to my desire to create a stable nuclear family complete with mother along conventional British lines. The convenient moment has not, however, presented itself, due to her rapid rise within the paper and other factors.

Our union was not in all regards orthodox. Penelope was the elder daughter of an all-white Surrey family in high professional standing, while Bruno Salvador, alias Salvo, was the natural son of a bog Irish Roman Catholic missionary and a Congolese village woman whose name has vanished for ever in the ravages of war and time. I was born, to be precise, behind the locked doors of a Carmelite convent in the town of Kisangani, or Stanleyville as was, being delivered by nuns who had vowed to keep their mouths shut, which to anybody but me sounds funny, surreal or plain invented. But to me it's a biological reality, as it would be for you if at the age of ten you had sat at your saintly father's bedside in a Mission house in the lusts green highlands of South Kivu in the East-ern Congo, listening to him sobbing his heart out half in Norman French and half in Ulsterman's English, with the equatorial rain pounding like elephant feet on the green tin roof and the tears pouring down his fever-hollowed cheeks so fast you'd think the whole of Nature had come indoors to join the fun. Ask a Westerner where Kivu is, he will shake his head in ignorance and smile. Ask an African and he will tell you, 'Paradise,' for such it is: a Central African land of misted lakes and volcanic mountains, emerald pastureland, luscious fruit groves and similar.

In his seventieth and last year of life my father's principal worry was whether he had enslaved more souls than he had liberated. The Vatican's African missionaries, according to him, were caught in a perpetual cleft stick between what they owed to life and what they owed to Rome, and I was part of what he owed to life, how-ever much his spiritual Brothers might resent me. We buried him in the Swahili language, which was what he'd asked for, but when it fell to me to read "The Lord is my Shepherd' at his graveside, I gave him my very own rendering in Shi, his favourite among all the languages of the Eastern Congo for its vigour and flexibility.

Illegitimate sons-in-law of mixed race do not merge naturally into the social fabric of wealthy Surrey, and Penelope's parents were no exception to this time-honoured truism. In a favourable light, I used to tell myself when I was growing up, I look more suntanned Irish than mid-brown Afro, plus my hair is straight not crinkly, which goes a long way if you're assimilating. But that never fooled Penelope's mother or her fellow wives at the golf club, her worst nightmare being that her daughter would produce an all-black grandchild on her watch, which may have accounted for Penelope's reluctance to put matters to the test, although in retrospect I am not totally convinced of this, part of her motive in marrying me being to shock her mother and upstage her younger sister.

My piece, like le Carré’s, breaks into more conventional prose (dialogue and narration upon the current tense activity ) shortly after the intro section, which some say it ‘telling’ but I  like to think of as a briefing. It kind of fits with military and governmental espionage pieces I feel. Every mission starts with a briefing.

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I just reread "The Snows of Kilimanjaro" for a class. My goodness, I saw more this time. I feel like the narrator is sitting within the ray of potential happiness, & he knows it, & he just can't get there. And perhaps he's felt that way for the longest time.

I felt sad for a whole day after reading it. It's as if he became my own flesh and blood.  As if I was fading.

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corra wrote:

I just finished The Waste Land by T. S. Eliot and a biography on Zora Neale Hurston. Before that I read Long Day's Journey Into Night by Eugene O'Neill. So incredible. I love the crashing in on itself feel of that one. Probably the best play I've ever read. I also read Ariel by Sylvia Plath very recently. Brutal imagery. I think she's my favorite poet.

I'm about to start A Room of One's Own by Virginia Woolf. It's lying open behind me. smile

Large parts of the Wasteland have great word usage...even if the subject matter is sad.

www.gutenberg.org  has O'Neill's The Hairy Ape if you want to read another of his.

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Dill Carver wrote:

I currently have two on the go....

Wolf Hall by Hilary Mantel  - Historical Novel about Thomas Cromwell within the Court of Henry VIII. A Booker Prize winner and a great read (if you like that sort of thing). I'd already read 'Bring Up the Bodies' which is her sequel to Wolf Hall. Wrong order I know, but 'Bring Up the Bodies' was a birthday gift.


Matterhorn by Karl Marlantes.

A novel set in the Vietnam War and I'm finding it excellent so far.
Interesting to this community because it was first released as a minor (self) publication but was picked up by a major publisher and has gone bestseller. I believe it will become a mainstay classic.

smile Makes me wish I hadn't burned myself out on historical readings.

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And I should not tell you what I'm readings...as it's mindless, happy trash but its what I want to read right now..and I enjoy it.  I"m reading SHelly Laurenston who I find incredibly funny, sweet, sexy and just a good time.  But are they great pieces of literature?  Ugh, not really.    I love her romance series...but not her new crow series.

I have been playing with the idea of buying '"The Martian' though.

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TirzahLaughs wrote:

And I should not tell you what I'm readings...as it's mindless, happy trash but its what I want to read right now..and I enjoy it.  I"m reading SHelly Laurenston who I find incredibly funny, sweet, sexy and just a good time.  But are they great pieces of literature?  Ugh, not really.    I love her romance series...but not her new crow series.

I have been playing with the idea of buying '"The Martian' though.

Reading is for pleasure Tirz!  I'd be reading Spike Milligan right now If I'd not read all of his books over and again for the past thirty years. There's no judgment in it. Whatever anyone is reading, it is great to hear about.

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Dill Carver wrote:
TirzahLaughs wrote:

And I should not tell you what I'm readings...as it's mindless, happy trash but its what I want to read right now..and I enjoy it.  I"m reading SHelly Laurenston who I find incredibly funny, sweet, sexy and just a good time.  But are they great pieces of literature?  Ugh, not really.    I love her romance series...but not her new crow series.

I have been playing with the idea of buying '"The Martian' though.

Reading is for pleasure Tirz!  I'd be reading Spike Milligan right now If I'd not read all of his books over and again for the past thirty years. There's no judgment in it. Whatever anyone is reading, it is great to hear about.

I burned myself out on literature.  And life has been stressful...I just want to come home and not think.
smile

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TirzahLaughs wrote:

I burned myself out on literature.  And life has been stressful...I just want to come home and not think.
smile

I work away from home a lot. Sometimes, midweek with work stresses and long hours I return to the hotel put the TV on and sit in front of it, numb. I worked in Kiev, Ukraine for seven months, earlier this year and the less I could understand what was being said, the more I enjoyed the programe. I think it was that my mind did not have to engage and that detachement was comforting/relaxing.

Literature can be tiring, there is mental effort required to hold yourself engaged and work the interpretation of prose into thought. It's why, every now and again, I pick up a comic or graphic novel.

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TirzahLaughs wrote:

And I should not tell you what I'm readings...as it's mindless, happy trash but its what I want to read right now..and I enjoy it.  I"m reading SHelly Laurenston who I find incredibly funny, sweet, sexy and just a good time.  But are they great pieces of literature?  Ugh, not really.    I love her romance series...but not her new crow series.

I have been playing with the idea of buying '"The Martian' though.

I read for the historical archive, if that makes any sense. Old books have been read by MANY people, including my own relatives, so I like to read them to read what history has read. It feels like hearing history speak. But I am utterly happy reading letters, journals, biographies, telegrams smile etc. For me, it's the archival voice. That's just what personally makes me happy. I read it for the same reason you read Shelley Laurenston.

When I really want to relax, I read a Margaret Mitchell biography. Yes, I am obsessed. I've been told. By my brother.

Most of those titles listed above were for a lit class. (Not the Plath. I read that for myself.) If I could be reading anything right now? I'd be reading...

I had to think. In just this moment, I'd pick up Anne of Green Gables for a reread. I find children's classics incredibly cozy.

(I've been waiting on The Martian for weeks at the library. I'm currently #10.) x

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corra wrote:

Somehow I've overwritten your post here corra. I think it is because I'm almost as bad a moderator as you were wink  Accidentally wiping people out. Power goes straight to the keypress.

You said something like; 'le Carré  - you'll need to read them all again"

lol Just seeing this!

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Dill Carver wrote:

In my mind I refer to le Carré all of the time. Funny how some writing sticks and influences.

I re-visited and polished up a story of mine for the current short story competition here on tNBW. I actually wrote it a couple of years ago and it was my big exercise in writing in John le Carré 'style.'

His works are either loved or hated.

This is opening to my piece, The Executioner.


These crazy mock-executions have to stop. It is time; I think we all know that...

I've never read le Carré, but I really like that blunt, abrupt style in the excerpt! He already had me interested in what happens next! I think "tell" can be done very well: it offers the author the opportunity to "show" the character's voice and personality, and to dilute the tale with the character's agenda or perspective. I like your idea that it's like a briefing. smile I think you and le Carré  do it piping well! It would be a shame to cut the character intro to get immediately into action. This sort of opening is the sinkinable kind. (That's a word!) smile

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corra wrote:
TirzahLaughs wrote:

And I should not tell you what I'm readings...as it's mindless, happy trash but its what I want to read right now..and I enjoy it.  I"m reading SHelly Laurenston who I find incredibly funny, sweet, sexy and just a good time.  But are they great pieces of literature?  Ugh, not really.    I love her romance series...but not her new crow series.

I have been playing with the idea of buying '"The Martian' though.

I read for the historical archive, if that makes any sense. Old books have been read by MANY people, including my own relatives, so I like to read them to read what history has read. It feels like hearing history speak. But I am utterly happy reading letters, journals, biographies, telegrams smile etc. For me, it's the archival voice. That's just what personally makes me happy. I read it for the same reason you read Shelley Laurenston.

When I really want to relax, I read a Margaret Mitchell biography. Yes, I am obsessed. I've been told. By my brother.

Most of those titles listed above were for a lit class. (Not the Plath. I read that for myself.) If I could be reading anything right now? I'd be reading...

I had to think. In just this moment, I'd pick up Anne of Green Gables for a reread. I find children's classics incredibly cozy.

(I've been waiting on The Martian for weeks at the library. I'm currently #10.) x


I really want to read "The Martian'.  I've heard great things...but the Kindle is too high right now.  I figure it'll drop or get to the library soon.

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A Farewell to Arms.

It's about time I read it.  I've read many of his short stories, but this is my first Hemingway novel.

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Oh, enjoy! That one's been in my queue for the longest time. I remember really liking the beginning. I've had a tug for The Sun Also Rises lately.

“It is awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night it is another thing.”

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I'm starting Sula by Toni Morrison (for a class.) smile

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I've just begun Of Human Bondage by W. Somerset Maugham. I like the impact he creates in simple delivery:

"Philip opened a large cupboard filled with dresses and, stepping in, took as many of them as he could in his arms and buried his face in them. They smelt of the scent his mother used. Then he pulled open the drawers, filled with his mother's things, and looked at them: there were lavender bags among the linen; and their scent was fresh and pleasant. The strangeness of the room left it, and it seemed to him that his mother had just gone out for a walk. She would be in presently and would come upstairs to have nursery tea with him. And he seemed to feel her kiss on his lips.

"It was not true that he would never see her again. It was not true simply because it was impossible. He climbed up on the bed and put his head on the pillow. He lay there quite still."

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I purchased a copy of Child 44 by Tom Rob Smith from the bookstore today.

I watched the movie on Saturday and was very impressed (moved) by it and so bought the novel upon the first opportunity that presented itself.
I've not started it yet. I have some train commuting and a return flight this week and this book will be my companion.

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I just finished The Crucible by Arthur Miller, which inspired me to begin The Witches: Salem, 1692 by Stacy Schiff. I'm also still reading A Farewell To Arms and Stardust. I'll be finishing Toni Morrison's Sula in a few minutes. I've never read Toni Morrison. I found the work incredibly poetic and -- well, readable. I wanted to know what would happen!

(I love the way movies inspire us to pick up books. That's what inspired me to read Testament of Youth by Vera Brittain.) smile

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corra wrote:

I just finished The Crucible by Arthur Miller, which inspired me to begin The Witches: Salem, 1692 by Stacy Schiff. I'm also still reading A Farewell To Arms and Stardust. I'll be finishing Toni Morrison's Sula in a few minutes. I've never read Toni Morrison. I found the work incredibly poetic and -- well, readable. I wanted to know what would happen!

(I love the way movies inspire us to pick up books. That's what inspired me to read Testament of Youth by Vera Brittain.) smile

I'll be looking for Toni Morrison, thanks for that.

The great thing is that novels inspire the movie makers. When a good film comes along, the inspirational book is likely to be good too. I recommend the 'Child 44' movie very highly. It delivers a strong insight into the internal conflict of values and justice within Russian officials and their families  during this period when every thought exposed or emotion shown could be extremely dangerous. Much like the 'literary fiction' of the movie world, we feel these characters very deeply.

I saw another movie and it has wrecked me for a while.   Called '96 Minutes' it essentially centres around a 'carjacking' incident in Atlanta Georgia. It shocked me to the core. I've been around the world, to armed conflicts within Europe, Africa and the Middle East but none of that prepared me for this. I don't know how accurately this movie portrays the truth about the culture, morality and values of some of the characters portrayed, but it depicts a bleak and harrowing insight into the hip-hop gangbanger culture. People with such a perverted sense of morality that it has made me despair about the human race and where we are going. I've seen people within the most destitute and dire situations possible, refugee camps in war-torn Africa and there is more hope, honour, dignity and humanity there, than within these beer swilling, drug cultured video gaming, gun toting animals. Sickened to the core at how little these people value their own lives and community, let alone the lives of other innocent people. The ultimate 'feel bad' movie that make me feel disgusted to be human. If there's a book, I'll never read it for the bleak and depressing insight that it portrays upsets me to the core. How have we come to this?

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How have we come to this?

We haven't, Dill. Not all of us.

I was on a train this morning, and a man came through asking for help for a friend who was homeless. He made several announcements about the dire straits the friend was in, claiming he needed a certain amount of money. He has nothing, tossed out! No home or food, etc. The man in front of me reached into his pocket and offered what was clearly his own breakfast bar. He'd barely extended it when the man seeking help waved it away and said, "No man. I had MacDonald's."

Right there before me was evidence of the best in humanity, and if not the worst, certainly the questionable. These people come through all the time, making it impossible to know who really needs help, and who is simply trying to play off people's kindness. Who would let such people know they had a wallet? Not me! Which is terrible. The only time I've felt I could safely pull out my wallet was a few months ago. A man called out that he was a veteran in a bad place, and he needed some help. Something in his voice told me he was being honest, and I gave him what I could. That so many drown out the voices of those who really need help? It makes me wonder, too, "How have we come to this?"

A couple days ago I was hurrying through the station, and a man (for no particular reason) tossed out his cane and tripped me. I still don't know why? Just because he could? I had an armload of books and was wearing a backpack, so my weight was all off. I tottered for a moment, and then I crumpled onto the pavement. As I turned to meet the eye of the man who did it, I saw a stranger rushing forward to help me. He put out his hand, concerned before I'd even hit the pavement, I think, and ready to help. The best, and the worst, as Dickens might say.

I think sometimes all we can do is choose to look at the one putting out a hand. They are still out there. They seem to appear even as we topple. I know that from experience. x

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I'll be looking for Toni Morrison, thanks for that.

I had expected her work to be difficult to get into because most people I know try her novel Beloved first, and have trouble processing it. People seem to either find that book incredible, or frustrating. I'm not sure if that's because of the content or if it's just densely written, like stream of consciousness.

The style in Sula is very approachable. It is told almost orally, it seems. There's an interesting moment where the writing suddenly goes into first person for one of the characters. It's so subtly done you have to reread to notice, yet that single moment within the novel is underlined because of the momentary style change.

Sula is set just after World War I and begins with a veteran returning from the front. The story is about his attempt to cope with the realization that human life is finite and unpredictable and cannot be tidily categorized, but it is mostly told through the perspectives of two women in the town who come to the same realization and have very little to do with him. From early in the novel:

"It was not death or dying that frightened him, but the unexpectedness of both. In sorting it all out, he hit on the notion that if one day a year were devoted to it, everybody could get it out of the way and the rest of the year would be safe and free. In this manner he instituted National Suicide Day.”

There aren't final answers or resolutions in the novel. It's just raw, uncompromising bewilderment, and the desire to find oneself within that. Sula  asks what exactly "good" is. What "love" is. What "peace" is, and some of it is incredibly difficult to read. Not because it's stylistically difficult, but because some of what happens is gruesome and incomprehensible, and Morrison doesn't make it easy to take it in. She doesn't make it pretty. I feel that the novel is like poetry because of that. She shows it to you, but she doesn't tell you how to feel about it.

I think I'll try Beloved soon. I think it's supposed to be her masterpiece:

“She is a friend of my mind. She gather me, man. The pieces I am, she gather them and give them back to me in all the right order.”

“There is a loneliness that can be rocked. Arms crossed, knees drawn up, holding, holding on, this motion, unlike a ship's, smoothes and contains the rocker. It's an inside kind -- wrapped tight like skin. Then there is the loneliness that roams. No rocking can hold it down. It is alive. On its own. A dry and spreading thing that makes the sound of one's own feet going seem to come from a far-off place.”

“Sweet," she thought. "He must think I can't bear to hear him say it. That after all I have told him and after telling me how many feet I have, 'goodbye' would break me to pieces. Ain't that sweet."

This is Morrison talking about Beloved:

“In trying to make the slave experience intimate, I hoped the sense of things being both under control and out of control would be persuasive throughout; that the order and quietude of everyday life would be violently disrupted by the chaos of the needy dead; that the herculean effort to forget would be threatened by memory desperate to stay alive. To render enslavement as a personal experience, language must first get out of the way.”

My library has a copy of Child 44. It's on the way. x